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| THE QUESTION: Why is it that with all your education you didn’t write down some of your own philosophies that could have possible been used to avoid all this confusion about who you really were? |
| THE ANSWER: That is a very reasonable question and the answer at first thought is very simple, perhaps even a bit curt under the circumstances. If my ministry and its message were actually as complicated as described in the Gospels, then indeed, I should have done some very serious writing. Equally, had I known what I have learned only now, I would have certainly written a great deal and probably in more than just one language! If the truth be known, I thought that I had a very simple message with just one central idea, and that was of course, my wish that everyone could learn to love his neighbor, and I proposed this apparently far-reaching idea just to help put a bit more joy into the lives of so many dreary looking people, many of whom appeared to have so little else to live for. My message, being as simple and explicit as I had thought it to be, I saw no reason to write some great treatise that would have only served to possibly bring chaos to a effortless prescription for an uncomplicated order. Knowing what I know now, I guess I just wasn't as smart as I thought I was, and I certainly underestimated the impact that I was to have had. Of course, I obviously had no impact at all with that simple message that I had proposed; I was certainly too naïve for my own good to even imagine that what I was teaching would eventually be so distorted and for such a multitude of reasons that I had never even contemplated; big business, big churches, big budgets, big televangelism and the biggest of it all is BIG egos. Looking back, I should have been easily forewarned if for no other reason except for my own experiences and encounters with the horrid corruption that existed even then amongst the Hebrew priests and their often-pompous scribes. I guess I was just too easily blinded by my own simple ideas of love and just wasn't able to foresee how such a simple message could have become so terribly distorted. I'm not sure that I would have done anything any differently even with what I have learned today. It is sad that such a well-intended work was laid to waste for only the want of greed and power, and even worse, is the heartrending fact that so many innocent people died in vain at the hands of such a corrupted and vile religion. Perhaps I don't regret for having lived, but I certainly regret having laid the basic foundation for so much misery that was so wrongfully and terribly wrought in my also very simple name, Jesus. Did I do something so wrong in believing that I actually had something of value to offer my own people? You know, it is so very emotionally painful for me to have been revived only to have discovered such treachery and vile outcomes perpetrated on innocent people throughout this world in my name. I just don't know what to say? This question really hurts me to the core, and I only wish that I had somehow had the foresight to have expressed myself more explicitly. I'm truly sorry for all the pain I have caused! |